I sat in my office, pondering my thoughts about the New Year. Wow it is 2022! I then reach over to pull out my beautiful journal to write. On the cover of my journal I read such a beautiful quote, "Her greatest power is believing in Herself! This is such a thoughtful quote for a journal! The catchy words that caught my eyes is “Believing in Yourself”!
A few years ago, I did not fully believe in myself, or did not have the full confidence that God had created me with my own powerful gifts.
I had focus on other people’s needs, problems, and issues, than my own. I ignored and doubted my own abilities that I possessed. I attempted to manage issues and problems that really were too big for me to handle, these problems and issues really belonged to God. One day I held up my hand and realized all the problems that I was attempting to manage were too big for just one hand to hold. It is then when I realized that all the issue and problems, that I was trying to manage were too big for me to handled. Then I remember speaking to God, that I will released all the people's needs, problems , issues, and give them back to you God! The peoples issues and problems did not belong to me they belonged to God, I was just getting in the way. I learned that I needed to get out of the way and allow God to handle them all.
Then reality happened in my life, especially, when I stopped at the fork in the road and realized it was me that needed God as well to heal my issues and problems inside and out. And not to take on more than I could bare.
I started to refocus inwardly on myself and started believing again. You may say in who? I say MYSELF! God gave me more self-esteem, strength, confidence, which cause me to believe in myself more.
I moved out of the way to let God do his job of helping people with their own problems and issues. Therefore, I started praying instead of taking control of things I could not solve.
When you start believing in myself; when I started refocusing on Evelyn. Then God started opening big doors, connecting me with individuals that would help me move myself forward in the gifting's that were taking place to be birthed. And in doing all that it causes me to start believing in myself again! Remember the Battle is not yours, it belongs to God.
2 Chronicles 20:15 "And he said, Listen, all you of Judah, and you inhabitant of Jerusalem, and you, King Jehoshaphat! Thus says the LORD to you: Do not be afraid nor dismayed because of this great multitude, for the battle is not yours, but God's. (NKJV)